We Hope Your Parties Are Panic Free
The name Panic Party Association was curated back in the mid-2010s when I was just out of college. Thinking I will have my own brand someday, I wanted it to be a voice for neurodivergent folks across the world. I wanted it to be a platform where I could share my life and nerd-out on all my interests, distractions, and short-lived hobbies. I wanted it to be a platform where people could buy non-mainstream pop-culture based clothing and accessories which catered to very specific niches. I wanted to make my own music and compositions. I wanted to stream the games I played with friends. In the pandemic, it was very close to being a production company. An old friend would run their freelance services through it and there was an idea where I could create concepts for TV shows as well as learn the intricacies of what goes into making a TV show or a movie. What I wanted to do under the brand name has kept changing numerous times over the years.
Every single year, I used to check whether the domain was still available for purchase and that was it. It was always available but I never had the courage to go through with it and start something of my own. The fear of failure was so intense that I couldn’t shake that feeling.
Why start now after all these years? Well, I quit after working a full-time job for 4 years. The job which I absolutely loved at the beginning of my career started affecting my mental health and I had to get out of there. My girlfriend, Arya, who has been a huge pillar of support pushed me to pursue this and told me to just write down my thoughts into weekly articles without overthinking about the end goal. I do not know if I ever would’ve bought the domain and finally started this if not for her.
Honestly, I don’t know if this is something that will work out for me or it’ll be another thing I failed at. I don’t know where this will take us. What I do know is that I want Panic Party Association to be a place that people visit to feel a little less lonely, less miserable, a place where people can relate to something if not everything and know they’re not alone. As I tell my girlfriend every week, feel free to be autistic :)
A little excerpt from the first article of Unemployment Diaries:
I know I can’t fit everything about me in one article. I’m just hoping putting down the dumpster fire chaos that is my brain into words helps. The articles may not have a theme and like an ADHD brain, it will contain random information and updates. I may have a touch of the ‘tism and that’s putting it lightly.
Having said that, Welcome to the World’s Most Randomass Website.